Finish the sentence...

I am not a big fan of chain emails especially if it has something to do with broadcasting yourself to the public (i mean posting bulletin or notes in Friendster or Facebook) by answering some personal questions. Yes I write blogs but this is my personal view of life and not broadcasting what i have or don't have (you know stuffs). Except for this one, this looks writing something about yourself but on a more personal level without bragging anything or promoting anything, The idea is to finish the sentence and pass it on to your closest friends to get a quick glimpse of their personal feelings. Ready? Here you go.

1. My ex lives in …... the Philippines

2. Maybe I should....start working out. I really need too!

3. I love...nature, coffee and quality time with family

4. People would say that I am....frank, smart and a happy person

5. I don't understand....why some people are not happy with other people's success

6. When I wake up in the morning....i make sure that Ella is still in bed and checking my cellphone for messages

7. I trust...my husband

8. Life is full of....surprises

9. My past taught me....to become a better person as I am now

10. I get annoyed with...when people are immature and not acting as according to their age. Also i get annoyed with people who just wants their own happiness even if it means someone will have to sacrifice for them and I get annoyed with people who talk as if he/she knows everything just to make you look or feel bad.

11. Parties are ....fun and i miss having one.

12. I hope to.....have another baby and this time hoping its a boy

13. Dogs are....cute. Unfortunately, i can't have dogs here in the house.

14. Cats are....so sweet and adorable and i miss my cats in the Philippines

15. Tomorrow will…be waiting for daddy and hope to have a nice dinner with him

16. I have a low tolerance for.....immature, self-centered, liars and selfish individuals

17. If I had a million dollars.....i'll buy a house in the countryside with huge backyard and just live a simple life with my family and i'll share my blessings to my family (my mom most especially).

18. I'm terrified of...losing a loved one

19. When I look at the night sky I think....about what i saw in the movie. are we really abusing our planet?

20. If I could be anyone it would be...still myself

21. I hate...immature, self-centered, liars, selfish and pretending to be someone they are not or pretending to know something that they dont.

Right timing

People tend to get disappointed on a lot of things. Simple ones and more so on the more bigger and complicated ones. And I don't exempt myself to any of these. In fact, the littlest things upsets me so you can just imagine how i feel if I am faced with the bigger problem. For months now, I have been whinning about certain things to my husband. I know he's just taking it but lately he has been very honest to me and I know he's also upset that I am upset. And for him to worry about my disappointments is really not fair. Few months ago, I made a decision that any mom will make if caught in that scenario. Apart from that, I came from a very sad situation that stresses me so hard and up to this date, I am still not over it. The decision that I made is by far the right thing to do given that scenario. I was very happy with that and I know up until now, I am still happy that I was matured enough to choose the right thing. But I thought it was only for a short period of time... Months passed and my disappointments grew bigger and sometimes uncontrollable that I am letting it out to my love ones. I know its wrong but I guess I just needed an outlet and letting it out to them would free me from the stress that is building in my head. I know and I still believe that God has plans and everything will fall in its place as according to his will. Everything happens for a reason and I am still waiting for the right timing and will continue to wait up until He is ready to give it to me. And for now, I chose to just go with the flow, enjoy life and trust that He will give my heart's desire very soon.

Longing

On April 12th, Papa will turn 59... If he's still here. This is his first birthday "away" from us. Back then, we would gather around and celebrate with him. Although during my college years and when I started working in Manila, I seldom celebrate with him but always make sure that I will always have something for him for his birthday. May it be as simple as birthday card or just a short call to greet him. Going back, aside from Christmas and my birthday, Papa's birthday is one event I always look forward to every year. His birthday is always grand. A minimum of 6 entrees are served. Lechon is always in the table. Sumptuous meals which he personally cooked and prepared just for his event (Papa is a good cook!). It always have pancit, lechon kawali, menudo, fish, chicken, kare-kare, and of course liquors (tanduay, beer, etc).

Days before his birthday, he would asked us (his kids) to send text messages to our uncles and aunties reminding them to come to our house to celebrate. Before the evolution of cellphones and text messages. I would go to a nearby "tiangge" to use their phone and call our relatives and remind them to come to Papa's birthday.

And then came the event, earlier that day,everyone is busy prepping for the event. Personally, my tasks it to peel all veggies that needs peeling i.e. potatoes, carrots, etc. And then I would see Papa cooking one by one all his "handa" for the day while humming and whistling his favorite song (kahit ano lang maisip nya that day). You can feel that he's very happy. The deal is to finish all the meals before 5pm. Kaya naman at 5pm sharp, you'll find him all prep and looking gwapo (just came out from shower) and just waiting for his guests while in front of the tv, watching basketball or any catchy show that day. There he was with his favorite pangtagay na baso and already starting to open his ever favorite Tanduay. Before 6pm, almost all his guests has arrived and are all eating in the table or sharing a good drink with him. And you would see in his eyes how happy he is, seeing his brother and nephews spending time with him on his birthday. Male bonding ika nga.

Well this year will be different. No more celebration, no more drinking and no more of Papa in his happiest time of the year..... But I'm sure up there, he is celebrating and having a male bonding with his favorite saint... San Miguel =)

Happy birthday Papa! I miss you.